This is a tough subject for me but I thought I would introduce it here as this blog is about me and my life and I want it to be included.  Its part of me and who I am.  I didn’t want it, I didn’t ask for it but its been around me for a long time and its part of who I am.   Its Health anxiety

If you google definition of health anxiety you get this

Health anxiety is an anxiety disorder that is often housed within the Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) spectrum of disorders. Those affected by health anxiety have an obsessional preoccupation with the idea or the thought that they are currently (or will be) experiencing a physical illness.
This is in a nutshell but lets be honest with every illness it doesn’t always work as “one size fits all”  .
For me I wouldn’t say I am OCD but I can understand this if your health anxiety was very extreme and thoughts of keeping clean.  Mine, thankfully,  isn’t as bad as it could be.  However this doesn’t mean it’s not there and that it’s easy.
I have always suffered with being scared of death and how I will die.  Whenever I get a pain or ill I think the worst.  A sore head is a brain tumour, A sore leg is a blood clot, a pain in my chest is a heart attack.  You get the picture. Thing with health anxiety there is no alternative to what the pain or illness could be, It can’t just be a headache.  This maybe sound strange to someone that doesn’t have it. In fact on days when all is fine I think the same.
Things in my past haven’t helped this, in fact it probably fuelled the anxiety fire.  My mum has always been ill and its been with very serious things. When I was in my early 20s I lost two dear friends for very rare reasons and lastly there is a lot of people in our life and families and I think I have been to a funeral every year since I was a child of 12.  Even writing this makes me see what has caused and created the anxiety I have today.
I have got to the stage that I realise triggers and times that I am at my worse and I can identify that its JUST anxiety and try and fight the images and stories my mind makes up .  However it is not always easy .
I am not going to say much more for now as I feel you guys may fall asleep with the amount I could say . However just know if you have health anxiety then you are not alone.
I am going to talk about health anxiety on here at times, how I cope with things, how I coped in labour and pregnancy and how I cope as a mum.  I have not got it as bad as some but it is my story. We all worry about health at some points so hopefully my stories will help someone out there .
Much love from me to you xx